Ever since my Dad died last January from Cancer, its a word that I dread and detest.
So when my mum returned from London after visiting her beloved youngest sister who turns 50 next week with the heartbreaking news that she has Cancer. I felt as if another part of me was dying. My aunt lost her daughter my 16year old cousin last year, so now having to deal with a blow like this is very devastating.
My aunt has ovarian cancer , she has already started her chemo and has started losing her hair. She has now taken what ever remains of her hair totally off:( I have decided to grow my hair and give it to her to be made into a wig as she refused one from the Hospital.
Every side you turn there are stories of Cancer and it doesnt have a particular race, age or sex.I hope and pray that they find a cure for this disease 😦
So dear readers keep my family in your prayers as emotionally we are heartbroken.
This year has been the most emotional year of my life . Losing my Dad on New Years morning was such a tremendous loss to my family , we are still coming to terms with this tragedy . On Sunday 1st July another heart breaking tragedy occured in my family with my 16year old cousin in London committing suicide . I feel as if another part of my heart has died. There are no words to describe the feeling of the heart . I found this quote which sums up what i feel ” Tears are the words the heart can not express”.
There are a million questions , a million memories and a million tears. I found this poem in a card someone had sent to us during Dad’s funeral and it seemed very appropriate so i thought i would share it .
Letter from HEAVEN:
To my dearest Family , Somethings I would like to say , but firstly I have to say I have arrived safely. I am writing this from Heaven, here where I dwell with God above. Here there is no more tears just eternal love.Please done be unhappy cause I am out of sight, remember I am with you morning , noon and night.On the day I had to leave this earth , God picked me up and hugged me said ” I welcome you ,it is good to have you back yu were missed while you were gone. As for your dearest family they will be here later on. I needed you badly you are part of my plan.”
Dont be afraid to cry it is good to relieve the pain ,remember there can be no flowers without the rain.There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb.When you are walking down the street and you got me on your mind, I am walking in your footsteps only half a step behind you AND when its time for you to go from your body to be free REMEMBER YOU ARE NOT GOING ………YOU ARE COMING TO ME ……. REST IN PEACE MY DARLING DIAMOND PRIYANKA.LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND FOREVER……”The HEART that has truly LOVED never FORGETS ”
With the tragic passing away of my baby cousin this question of Technology , i started questioning this digi age.This morning I placed an order for Flowers to be sent for the funeral on Friday .It was so hassle free and easy even the personalised message seemed so impersonal.
I later had to send an email with a message for the funeral yet again it seemed so cold and impersonal. It seems the world has become a place where we hide our emotions via a screen.I later recalled a BBM convo with Mr X about ithe possibilities of falling for someone you have never met but just had contact with over a social network. Is it really possible to fall in love with someone you have neve met just by having an email chat ? I personally have my reservations on this matter as its so easy to hide behind a screen and say things we want a person to hear/see. It is very easy to say yes me too , I love that book /movie /song . Yet when face to face it is much harder to hold a conversation and hide our facial expressions and body language. To fall for someone I believe it takes some time and a combination of communication methods to get to know a person and ultimately a face to face meeting either elevates the relationship or ends it. Just imagine trying to relay a funny story over an email or BBM or Whatsapp , there is no facial expresions no gestures and the only response one can give is a LOL and a laughing face icon. I personally am one of those people who is a Storyteller with a million stories so I dont think i could convey all these stories in just a text or email or in a Tweet .
It seems gone are the days of the art of conversations , letters and cards. Using all sorts of digital means we do hide behind a screen , its very easy to pretend to be someone else and have a conversation without the other person getting to know us.I recall as a little kiddie loving the feeling of opening a letter or card sent to me now I dont even get my cellphone account sent to me as its sent as an email. Gosh I suddenly feel old saying this but yes I miss the good old days of communication.
This then leads me onto another train of thought and the safety of using social networks. Right up till very recently there have been cases in the News of young girls meeting older men on the net posing to be younger guys. Some of these stories did not turn out well. So how safe are we really ? Is it so easy to become a different person online and create a whole different personality ,steal an image ? Sadly the answer is yes …
So hence I have come to realise that our emotions have been stolen by this New Techno Age and yes I miss the good old days…